you’re getting oh so near. All these REAL dates are making you seen even CLOSER :( Once the count down for high school days had hit single digits, “s—t got real.” :( I just confirmed my room, so far no one else is in there so I shall see who will be living with me! August 21st, I guess that’s when I will be heading out. Damn, I can’t believe it…Summer will fly by, but I can only hope for the best.
The most recent essay in expository has gotten me to think a lot. I thought about my past and the start of my eating disorder. I thought about the reasons why it’s still lingering today. I thought about how it all started. I thought about how the wonderful people that have gotten me through it day by day. I’ve just thought a lot. I’m thankful for all those that have stuck around and continue to help me because they know that, that’s all I need is for them to be around. I might not accept compliments, but that’s because I don’t know how. But even so, people continue to be nice to me even when they don’t have to. They continue to support me, I’m so thankful. They realize that I’m not fishing for compliments, when in fact I am only fishing for acceptance from myself for myself. I can feel life coming together once again. The happier I am these days, the easier it is to forget this unpleasant disease I deal with. Thank you<3 Thank you for all those that have been an ounce nice to be at all.
A little post with a little about me and what's on my mind.
I haven’t been on here very much recently and the only times I probably go on is to write about how often I am not on here anymore. Writing about life and just writing in general, really helps me take the stress away from everything that happens in my life on a daily basis. I want to believe that I have come a long way with my writing because it is something I take a lot of pride in. The way people structure a sentence in an attempt to express how they feel without watering it down too much is amazing. That’s the way I always viewed my English classes, especially in high school. I remember hating my English and Grammar classes in elementary school, but yet I remember thinking that it would be very ironic if one day, I somehow fell in love with this subject and coincidentally, I did. The root of writing something that would be considered “good,” is cleverness. It’s about manipulating words and feelings into a line of letters, with the first letter capitalized and with a dot at the end of the last one. In elementary school, we were told that there are different types of learners. Some are visual learners and some were hands off, based off the book learners. I never thought I’d be a visual learning because I was trained to read a lot of books, but nonetheless I am a hands-on visual learner. What I enjoy the most when I’m writing is the ability to use imagery. Not only am I telling a story in words, but it plays out in a vision in which I had helped my reader develop. I have and always will be a math person. The reason why numbers work quickly in my mind is because I visualize the numbers moving to their appropriate spots as I am calculating. I also use this method of imagination in my writing. When words have a double or triple meaning, I feel like that’s the most appropriate time to manipulate the word’s ability to stretch out and possibly mean something else. I have to admit, the jokes I enjoy the most are those with play-on words. When I was younger and the teacher asked everyone what they wanted to be when they were older, I remember answering, “a news anchor and an author.” I honestly never understood why I wanted to be an author when I despised the English portion of my class. I guess, I found out more about myself at the younger age than I had expect, but oddly enough I didn’t even know that yet. I entered high school with English ACC, but now I find myself entering college with the thought of maybe minoring in in English as well. Figuring out how to write better in high school has taught me so much. I’m very excited to start my college classes in hopes of finding a professor that is waiting to inspire me. I’ve watched many teachers inspire me all these years, mostly English ones, and that anticipation is building up everyday as I’m counting down the days until I start college. All this excitement would of been unexpressed if I never learned how to express it through my writing. At the end of all this, I really forgot the motive behind this post, but I think I was just in the mood to write and I’m glad I did. Until next time.
I’m super more content with life. High school is coming to an end and I’m ready to start a new chapter in my life. Summer, I am excited<3 I finally found who I am again after losing myself in an unhealthy relationship last year. I’m over the moon with this boy. I don’t talk as much about that life anymore because it’s easier to enjoy it than to spend time talking about it, but I have to mention, I’m happy. AP tests are going good, one left to go and that’s all. I should start writing again, I disappointed with my recent essay in class, but thank goodness it was just a rough draft, I can revise :D Prom was an experience I’ve waited all four years for. It was nice, I honestly had the sweetest date ever. He was such a gentleman! I’m now going to sleep on the couch for the second night in a row, I need to clean my room -____- I need to go on a diet soon, okay, bye :D