I meeeeesssssssssss you :( I don’t know how to wrap up how my life has been in a nutshell! But, it’s been good. Everyday, I’m getting more done with high school, but it’s okay. I want college here already :D I’m excited for PROM! <3 :D My dress is almost here! TEHEHEH. Happy days are here.
when you’re cleaning out old papers and you come across the memories that had once made you smile and slipped your mind for awhile, but yet didn’t fail to bring back the smile it once gave you before. I hope that made sense. <3
This is David Chavarria. When I mentioned “good company,” he’s apart of it. I don’t care what people think because we have our own understanding of what kind of friendship we have. I don’t think someone has ever taken so much time in a day just to tell me how “amazing” I am. We have some of the best conversations I’ve ever had. He’s intelligent so it never gets boring. We can be analyzing a quote and having a mini debate on what it means or we can be talking about nonsense, yet it still doesn’t get boring. I enjoy his company and he enjoys mine. The moment I decided to not think about what it is between us, we got along great. There are some people you just click with and he’s one of them for me. It’s as simple as we enjoy talking to each other so we do. There’s no discussion about ‘oh what are we now?’ Well it doesn’t matter. Ask me if I like him, I have no answer because who cares? It might look like I’m just taking advantage of him because I know what he feels, but you can ask him, he understands and that’s all that matters.
I’m ending high school soon and why end it with “bad company,” when I have good company like him and my good friends. Nothing more to it.
When I made my decision to go to Merced, if they accept me, has been settling in quite nicely. I haven’t been exactly in the best mood lately, but slowly I’m getting better. I’m sticking by my rule of surrounding myself by those that make me happiest, the ones I call “good company.” It’s working out fabulously.
7/8 of my applications were rejections. I’ve been waiting on my 8th one just to find out it might of been withdrawn. Oh yeah, their admissions office is never open when I call, thanks. I can’t email them neither. I HATE LIFE. I guess I thought I could, but really couldn’t. I just wanted one good letter, just one. I guess that’s my fault for applying to the schools that I did. I reached too high out of my potential. Now, I’m here. I know that I had a plan B if this happened, but I find myself not happy to go through with it. Maybe, I’m not emotionally stable enough make any decisions, but I feel as if I won’t ever feel better. I just wanted to prove that I could do it. I wanted to be that person in my family to go out first. I would of been the first to leave to state on both sides of my family. My little cousins and their parents were looking up to me yet I couldn’t fulfill my duty. Even if I applied to UC’s, I doubt I’d get in with the budget cuts and my not good enough grades. I remember entering senior year with a lot of excitement and motivation, now I feel like I just need to graduate because what good is it for? For once I had the right kind of motivation, but it was too late. Here’s to those that didn’t expect I’d make it, enjoy. Here’s to those that thought I could do it, I’m sorry I proved you wrong. I don’t know how I would handle this situation without my parents. They have given me the best support anyone could ask for. Support is just support, now reality has set in and decisions will need to be made.
I don’t find myself on this as often anymore :( it makes me sad and I feel distant from it! Ha, sounds like tumblr is a real person to me or something.
Yesterday, I got asked to Prom! I was speechless and my friends were all in on it and I thought it was very cute. I should reenact what happened because one day I want to look back and remember.
So I got a text from Ivy asking me when I was going to come to Angelo’s and she said she need to “tell me a story.” So when I arrived, I did just that, I texted her but she was eating so she didn’t see it. Terrence then opened the door for me to come in and everyone looked quite stunned so Ivy came and took me back outside and told me a story. Half truthful story too! Ms. Felipe then comes out and says, “why are you young ladies doing sitting outside? You should be inside.” I then walked through Angelo’s house this time to get to the backyard instead of directly just walking in through the side. I walked out and all my friends were there looking at me and Raynise was recording and I was like what…? then I looked on the roof and there Angelo was sitting with a sign that says, “Joanne, prom with me?” It was tied to balloons because he hoped that he would just drop it and it would land but I kind of surprised them when I walked in the first time so he just had to get on top of the roof. Thanks Angelo<3 :)
And that’s how that happened.
I then went home around 9:30 and I talked to my parents for a good 2 hours! We discussed about college and their opinions on what to do and then my mom said something I wanted to document.
Mom: “You’re 18 now and I’m very proud to call you my daughter. I yelled at you a lot throughout the years, but I was just afraid that you would head down the wrong path. But obviously you didn’t and you sit in front of me today as an 18 year old. I can careless now if you get a boyfriend because I know that you’ve grown up. You had respected my rules and now I trust that you’re a good person. Go to college, get a boyfriend, I don’t care. He just needs to treat you right. You can go to college and bring be back a grandchild and I wouldn’t care. I know that you are a great person and I’m so proud. Thank you.”
TEAR JERKER!!!!!!<3 I love my parents. Well when she mentioned the grandchild thing my dad interrupted and choked on his food and said WHAT?!
Despite the difficult week I’ve had dealing with college rejection letters, the people I care for the most made up for it by starting my spring break right.
My daddy texted me when I was at Angelo’s telling me to start off my spring break right by having fun. TEhehehehe<3