I have this thing where I look at people and find the pros in them. Whenever I see them, their good qualities scream at me. Why does everyone seem so good in my eyes, when I think the polar opposite of myself.
I remember when my tutor first told me about this saying. Seize the day, I thought wth does that mean? He continued to explain it means to use the day to its fullest. In my humanities class, we watched Dead Poet’s Society. I fell in love with it! I was excited to watch it again this year again. This saying means a lot to me because I don’t feel like I’ve “seized” my days yet. Maybe the fact that high school is ending and I feel like it’s my last chance. I’m going to dig in deep and find all of my courage that’s been hiding inside. It’s about time I do what I want and not be that passive person who has slipped by high school the last four years.
I was eating dinner with my parents then my parents were bagging on me about how I don’t know how to take care of myself and when I’m older they don’t know if I can even take care of them. Then my dad says…
Dad, “you know what George said today? He asked me how does he choose a wife when he older. I had to tell him to be quiet because he’s young, but he kept asking me.”
A six year old thinking about marriage? And he’s the boy? Niceeeeeee.
In math, the answer isn’t always the most important thing. The reason they put the answers in the back is because how you get to the answer is more important. The answer is just a sign that you’ve reached to the end. I function the same way, maybe that’s why I’m majoring in math.
Kim ky for breakfast, muaha good morning. Plans after that didn’t go through as planned, but next time forsure. Then yay sagaths stuff :) but then AFTER that boiling crab :D but…then Cha! Omg so good. Then redbox. Yes, all with, you’ve guessed it, Jessica Lai :) we initially watched the movie in my living room but then my parents were cooking and suggested we go into my room and that we did. Hahah guys must be jealous, they’d want to lie in bed with Jessica Lai :) we saw You Again and at first I didn’t feel like it, but by the end of the movie I loved it :) that movie put us in such a good mood, despite the moments where we wanted to just stay there and sleep, we went to the gym with Joann Hua :) it’s getting easier, 2 hours flew by! 30 minutes on the eliptacle alone! My abs were killing me :( that’s the spot I want to correct the most! :( well all and all an ok work out. Now I’m home, time to get some rest. Another good day.
It was a great day. I got to spend it with my one and only best friend, whom I’ve missed dearly. We’ve definitely hung out more this year than last year, but then no one really knows how close we were before. I actually forgot how close we were considering we would spend everyday together and every weekend! Then last year we parted way for a long time considering we were going down different roads with different lives surrounded by different people. Then this year, we found the perfect balance between what is her life and what is my life. Yesterday, I went to go with her to mom’s house in LA which I haven’t been to for about a year. It was actually more than a year because her little cousin wasn’t even born yet, but now her little cousin is walking and dancing around in the living room and her other cousin is talking and climbing everything thinking he is spiderman. Her family is so inviting! Her mom is very nice and her grandma is hilarious :D I had a good day. We also went to forever 21 and shopped, which I found many many deals. I got things that I’ve been longing for years! We also took old pants and turned them into shorts, we are so prepared for the summer :D Overall yesterday was just a good day. I had many good laughs that only I can get from her and we had many talks. I like how we can talk about anything. We reminisced on old memories and laughed at the things we use to write in our notebooks, oh man good times. Boys come into the picture and so do other people, but at the end of the day I still have my best friend Ashley Jessica Martinez<3
Last week, I came home at 4:00am. This week, I woke up only 4 hours later than when I came home last week. Two different weeks, two different mind sets, two different reasons. I went on tumblr this morning and I realize tumblr is a place that makes me think after I’ve read everything. From little quotes, to people’s different stories, to old pictures that trigger an old memory to replay in my head. There’s so much on my mind I don’t even know how to start. Let’s say it took me more than one day to discuss it all with my best friend. The story drags on and it’s so frustrating that I can even see my best friend frustrated. I know it’s hard for anyone to react to what’s on my mind, but I feel the need to scream it outloud. I thought I saw something, then I was wrong, then I wasn’t wrong, but then I might be. I don’t know what to think, it’s easier to not think about it, like what I’ve been trying to do, but recently I’ve learned that it’s caught up to me. This is the moment in my senior year where everything is catching up to me and I don’t like it.