the last time I had it was at the beginning of the year when we just turned in the syllabus or something, but now new semester and I’m starting off with an A. A stable A too :D 94.8%<3 now time to keep it! Also, I would like my Spanish grade to go up too please :) Expository, I’ll take the B, but if that’s an A too hey why not?!
24. Dedicate a post to someone telling them what you think about them (positive things)
Dear Uncle 5,
This letter is really a letter of what I thought of you more than what I think of you. I would like to start off with, I miss you. I haven’t dealt with the thought that you’re gone, it’s crazy to think you’ve been gone for about 1 1/2 years now. You loved me unconditionally and you treated me as your daughter. I really hoped that one day you could of had your own because I knew you would of been the best there is. You changed your way, the moment you married your wife, I just couldn’t imagine how you’d been with a child. What I remember tore me the most up inside was watching you slowly die everyday in that hospital bed. You were constantly out of ICU, but you some how managed to get out and I really thought you’d beat your cancer. Cancer, I never thought of all people you’d get it. I didn’t take my chance to spend as much time as I could with you, in fact I distanced myself because who you once were before your wife. You were here on late starts because you would visit my mom and brother every morning. My mom’s phone would always go off every 5 minutes because you were so dependent on her. She had hurt the most when you passed. The love you had for my mom, amazing. I know you were the brother she loved so much. That last moment I saw you, the day before your scheduled chemo therapy, you were just a body operated by a machine. Your eyes were no longer capable of opening and your throat had a punctured hole so you can breathe through a tube. Your eyes then released tears, I couldn’t contain myself. I’ve never dealt with these emotions until now. I didn’t cry during your funeral because I couldn’t allow myself to accept you were gone. Once my mom’s phone started to ring less, I knew it would then be different. My brother adored you. Anyone my family loves that much kills me to know they are hurting twice as much. I believe the afterlife visits through dreams. I’ve seen you twice and the last time I had seen you, you were happy. I’m glad you are happy. this letter is to let you know how much I loved you and how much I do miss you. I want to reassure you that you are a great person even though I couldn’t tell you before you were gone. It still hurts to think of the last summer I’d spent with you. I hope you are doing great.
I’m getting worried now. His disobedience is getting out of hand. I try to be assertive with him and teach him boundaries, but my parents do not back me back. They give him his way, they give him all the “second” chances. It’s not teaching him to be any better. He simply laughs at every note that comes home and pulls out a fake cry for the moment, then simply goes to the TV within 5 minutes later watching it calmly. I hope he starts behaving now. He doesn’t know when to stop. He doesn’t know how to be good. Sometimes, I wish I can hate him so he would be scared of me. This little boy understands how much I love him so he uses that against me. I’m tired of hearing sorry(s), I want him to change for the better. I love my brother and all I want is the best for him. His disruptive behavior in class and all the unpleasantness he causes is so hurtful. When he tells me he doesn’t have friends at school, it kills me because it’s my brother I mean cmon. I hope he would shape but soon before this unfavorable quality drags on any longer. I hope in time he will understand. He knows it “hurts” us now but he doesn’t fully know what that means. Please, catch on George. I know you’re a smart little boy.
dear joanne lam, sorry for not responding to your texts this weekend. my phone was messsed up and had to get a new sim card. the sim card would not let me accept calls or texts ): in the process of getting my new sim card I lost your contaact and everybody else’s. please have the heart to forgive me ): ♥ M.