July 2010
today
marked one year since my uncle has left us. I don’t blame him for leaving, I don’t think any of us could watch him lay there in pain anymore. I’ve loved the ways he has visited me through my dreams and although his physical presence isn’t with me anymore, it doesn’t mean my love for him lessens any bit. Today was simply a peaceful day and I think it was what he meant...
happily frustrated
ugh! you drive me crazy inside but I don’t mind!
tehehe
Good day with SAGATHS and BAGATHS :) Bonding time was the best <3
LOL!
I'm a sucker
for places that give you free drink refills mmmmm, I believe it should be a way of life at restaurants :) <3
this might sound silly
but then it’s a huge step on my behalf and better yet a great chance in my life.
The other night, I stayed up late and really thought to myself, ‘what are you doing? why are you letting yourself put yourself down? if you don’t let yourself, how do you expect to go on?’ then I sat in front of the mirror and just looked at myself. in the past years, I’d sit in front of...
I want some right now :(
I'm sorry to my family
because you guys are the only ones I can truly get mad at and only you guys have only seen my anger, but that’s only because I know you won’t push my away. You won’t push me away because I know you guys truly love me unconditionally. Thank you for accepting me ALL the time <3
my dad is sooo funny! if you ask me where my lame...
sooooo then my dad recently has been worst the the FBI, texting me like crazy when I go out since I went out late for ONE night :( then I got really mad and rebelled against going out and I was just angry! my mom just laughed at me and that made me more angry :( so then the other day when I was at home my parents were like where are you going?! I’m like no where -___- you don’t...
recently,
I’ve almost accepted myself recently, but then I notice there’s hardly anything on my plate these days. I am eating a little better now with healthier foods or what not…
I feel like an effen fat whale :(
If this is the place for me to be fully honest,...
Mom,
I don’t know how many times you’ve said I am pregnant. You say people at your shop constantly say I am going to get pregnant and drop out of high school. You say prove them wrong, why when you are on the same team with them? You say you’re scared of me messing up in high school. Sorry I might not be ranked number 1, but I have managed to be good. I avoid parties and...
you guys are the foundation of my life;
How do I go on, when my foundation is cracking?
As you can see I am not, it’s very difficult -____-
16868.) Sometimes I wish I could hide from...
(via blogsecret)
ladada
I think of your physical appearance then I realize it’s non-existent at the moment. It is so weird, I didn’t know it would bug me that much! You were simply a text away, now who knows what you are doing. Today was the last day. Tomorrow, good luck. I looked at the clock at 4-8. I said too much! But this is the place to express what’s on my mind. Okay I am done, good night.
Today...
ouchouchouchouch
It’s been months since my period has made me go through this much pain, WTFFFFF we were on such a good streak. I didn’t even notice it whenever it was here. Last time it was this bad was LAST summer?! ugh the one that puts up with me the most isn’t even here for comfort =/ I don’t feel like eating so I can’t take medicine. Well all I have to say is that this sucks.
It's crazy,
we talked before if you were in the situation you are in now and honestly I didn’t know what to say and I still don’t know what to say! It’s still sinking in, I’m glad I’m a person you care to tell. Good luck :(
NIGHTS!
vickyslz:
Joanne Lam: I like how you have a sweet personality :) I love how we coincidentally did stuff at the same time, EVERYTHING buddy! I dislike that we don’t talk as much as basketball days and then I don’t see you as much anymore either! My first impression you look really familiar! I confess that you are a very pretty person inside and out and you have such a bright future ahead of...
this summer
I’m really tempted to ask my parents for a trip to the East coast for about 1-2 weeks, possibly myself just to see how it is over there. I want to see colleges and hope I have a chance! But I just want the trip. Everyday I’m inching closer and closer to asking them. A trip all by myself? How crazy. :( I just want to see how it is over there so bad!
NO, I don't believe you. It's because you're...
Tired of being misunderstood: bumps in the road? →
chlees:
I’m kind of in a ditch, filled with tar and I’m slowly sinking in it. I can run, but I will just keep falling in deeper and deeper. It’s going to be a tough phase to get out of, but eventually I will right? Life will move on. With the right support and love around me, I will definitely make it…
=/
I need some sort of sign that everything will be okay. Not one thing has gone my way,...
bumps in the road?
I’m kind of in a ditch, filled with tar and I’m slowly sinking in it. I can run, but I will just keep falling in deeper and deeper. It’s going to be a tough phase to get out of, but eventually I will right? Life will move on. With the right support and love around me, I will definitely make it out. After I get out, I will continue to move forward, pass this tar pit. This ugly...
Not. A. Single. One. </3
Now that my day is over and I’m not distracted, I am now sad. Yay.
I feel used.
What a dream!
I had a dream about one of my most hated person. GRRRRRRR you -_____- I told her how it was! I told her stop being fake me to me, we can cut the crap because it’s pretty evident that we didn’t like each other. She got furious and tried to attack in me in my dream, bisshhhh please! I twisted her arms and held them with one hand and said yeah, don’t bother. I just yelled at her...
guppy's today :)
dear mom and dad,
All you can tell me when you see me in how disappointed you are. I hope you know how much it does to my non-existent self-esteem. It brings me down more than you’ll ever know. All I need is support, sorry I’m not what you had wanted. You can always find a time to yell at me or pick point something that is wrong. I try my best to do everything you ask and if I make mistakes I’m...
sickened with anger, shaking inside
it’s just not the same anymore! I feel like I’m under a microscope, yet I still do something wrong. I should just lock myself in my room forever -__- maybe then they won’t get mad. I’m hungry and not even going to bother telling them, that’s as big of an f-you as I can give -___- early morning tomorrow, hopefully I can sleep.
You say it's impossible,
well I say no, I’Mpossible.
day 9: someone I wish I can meet
Dear myself in 10 years,
hey where have you made it to now? Has it been rough, I’m glad you made it. Tell me all about it, but then again maybe it’s better off I don’t know. I just want to know that I made myself happy with all of my decisions. Well have a good life, meet you one day.
Love,
Joanne Lam, 10 years ago
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Today, I am an improved version of myself back...
I wish I believed that.
