I’ve been have short breathes recently then I just realize that I’ve been really anxious all the time because there’s just so much to stress about. Where do I start with my failure in physics? The super hard history AP test where there’s not enough time to cram? The English class which I absolutely adore and enjoy, yet not feel prepared for the test? Statistics…as hard as a I work it sure doesn’t show what so ever? Humanities, oh Crime and Punishment I wish I had time to enjoy you. Spanish is good, but I know that for a fact soon my seat will be moved and then bye bye Spanish partner and then I have no one to talk to again. It’s not easy everyday at the brink of tears feeling like that. Eating…do you know how difficult it’s been? First, it’s the base of the problem a_______a. Food is disgusting. The aftertaste is worst. Where is my appetite? Enjoy eating, seriously. I can’t even go to ballys at the moment, I was dying when I last went…that’s just so sad. AP tests makes me glad to be done soon, but then it’s SAT time after and then senior year…college apps wtf no wonder I’m just in full stress. I rant and rant and rant over these things, but it’s all killing me inside truly. I’m so scared of failing, but I think that’s where I’m heading. So there for everyone who’s expecting me to fail, who want me to fail, I guess it just might happen so just get your laugh while you still can. I just don’t get it…I really don’t. I mean I know there are things I wish I would of done differently, but who hasn’t? Today I had expected a lot, but look expected and expectations led to disappointment…:( there’s so much I want to say, but I feel like I’m done. Okay I guess…goodbye…:(
This week was just intense! I am glad it’s over, but then it’s a bitter sweet feeling because that means the AP tests are getting closer…Just paid today actually uh can you say $344 out of my parent’s pocket which just totally made me like uh…pressure? I hope studying a lot this weekend and until the tests come it will definitely pay off. I mean you don’t even know how good it would feel when I know that I have passed all of my tests! My grades too, if I bring up anything I will feel unstoppable and that is all I want. In the end I just want a good ending to this very difficult year. Then senior year…I’m so excited, yet nervous oh my! I have STAR testing with Mr. Vasquez! So I read the mass email which he sent to my class saying that he missed us, aww it was so nice! I’m nervous about that AP test, but that’s what my study guide is for and this weekend I will learn my vocabulary. History, that mean just um 4 more weeks and I will be happy and relaxed…well okay after June 13, well that reminds me I need to go sign up for ACT and then by then I can say I’m done? uhhh well I will just be happy once AP’s are done for now…I am always tired! Why must I be so tired all the time?!?! Well maybe I have rambled on too much I will just stop…okay goodbye!