Today continued to suck, I tried eating again, but once again -___- I can’t hold anything. I had some clam chowder, but I’m having trouble not to throw up again. Then I get yelled at for laying in bed, DUDE I get it I’m not doing anything but I don’t feel well. My mom needs to let me rest -_- she made me cry. I just feel like crap all over and nothing has gone well today. Time to drink medicine and then maybe I’ll try to do some history homework since my mom’s like “you will slack off…blah.” Not one thing has gone good. Thanks.
today sucks; I can’t go shopping because I have too much homework, I can’t do homework because I’m too sick :( wtf. I hardly ate yet I still threw up for the 4th day in the row! I have nothing left to throw up! :( My heads all hurting from the flu, yet it’s all dizzy from being hungry. I’m just really confused! Ughhh maybe I’ll try to do more homework later, but not until I can eat. I only crave for sushi, but the one in vegas even if I eat sushi I will throw up forsure. :( Oh I was able to go to target only to watch my parents buy air freshener, then my dad said that I should put it away because I bought that stuff ? yeah :( I’ve only read 8 pgs out of 50 for history, I remembered there’s physics homework, plus SAT homework which needs to be done tonight :( What a long day! Everything sounds gross to eat, but yet I’m so hungry :( I looked online at clothes because it’s the closest I get to shopping, oh well =/ This is my blog of complaints :( What a sad day! I should of stayed home Wednesday, a lot of bad consequences came out of it! My parents are still giving me crap about it to remind me everyday. I had a dinner roll with leftover turkey from yesterday and it’s not doing too well in my stomach at the moment :( Maybe if I rest I’ll feel better, but I’ve taken medicine 3 nights in a row yet its not helping. My dad called the doctor at 2:15 and they said they closed at 2:30 so I must go tomorrow. Last time I went, I waited for 4 hours to hear them say that I had anxiety -___- wasted time and money. Whatever :( everything sucks today. I hope everyone else is having a wonderful day! okay goodbye :(
was a success I believe so. The turkey was delicious, thanks jazmin and raynise! plus jeanette who bought us the turkey. The ham was also very goood! (: that’s a thanks to pat for letting us use her oven and then bring it :) mmmmm everything was good, the grace we had said before the dinner was hilarious and i believe recorded. A lot of funny pictures! There was also a nice little toast, with angelo pouring the drinks. Then ron’s surprise 5lb gummy bear! (that isn’t a lie) everything looked so pretty, i miss read the measuring cup as 1 cup when it was 3. cornbread doesn’t need 9 cups of water. There’s a lot left over, even though everyone took a plate home. We even saw the ugly truth, cuhh-ewwwt LOL We had 120453531943832 sodas also, none of this is exaggerated okay maybe the sodas but there was like 16 of them, 6 apple ciders. Well it was actually thanks to all of the girls who helped cooked! Amanda with the gravy and chocolate mmm emerald for the cornbread which i made a failure. I was bored most of the day and hungry waiting for the food! oh well time for homework, im thankful for that day!<3
It’s very cold tonight, but my dad said that’s just me getting sick :( sweats, sweater, fluffy socks, blankets, just don’t cut it when it comes to keeping warm! :( I want to sleep soon, lab then sleep :)
today marks seven months, pretty crazy. my fingers hurt from over cutting the nail. I’m almost done reading, but there’s the humanities book after. I took a really long nap today and it helped because I feel pretty good right now. Huckleberry Finn isn’t that bad. I understood my stats homework! I can’t wait to get a full nights rest tonight. Lunch with the girls tomorrow<3 I think I’m starting to feel better, maybe. okay back to huck :( goodnight.
What’s been wrong with me lately I’ve just lost hope for everything. I feel like it’s hard to express emotions to anyone, but if I don’t it seems like I don’t care and that isn’t the case. It’s a lot easier to mope around and not care about anything right now, I guess I lost a sense of hope. I need something good to just happen I guess, something to wake me up from this. I don’t want to seem dumb but this is how it is right now I just don’t care. I feel like I just gave up. I don’t see the point in anything. I’ve been quite angry too at everything and sometimes even at the people around me, but it really isn’t personal. There never seems to be enough time in a day either, I want to just sit around and take my time to appreciate everything, but then again I really don’t care. To those like my family, boyfriend, best friend, and my friends in general I feel like I haven’t been able to be myself and I might even come off as a jerk or just really weird. I’m getting tired of trying to put up that fake smile to show I’m trying, but yet it just goes back to me looking as if I don’t care. Well I guess this sort of help, but I have plenty of homework to get through and yet I still don’t want to continue. I’ve been sincerely trying too and I guess it doesn’t pay off. I guess this is it for now, goodbye. Sometimes it’s easier just to take the easy way out and not do any of it.
hour 3 of my bread making, I hope it turns out okay! i want those 50 points :( if only I had time to make this at least once so I know what to do! :( oh well now if it’s good yay good bread, if not I still must eat it :( I can see it rising! :) today is very relaxing and I wish it can last longer<3